The one who got away :)

Grabbed from bes tima. ♥ Nagoosebumps ako dahil sa sobrang totoo nito. xD Makes you re-analyze everything. Somehow nakakaparanoid? Haha. BUt then again, baka ako lang talaga yung ganito. )

Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with …and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away?

I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose. I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a long time partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing.

It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance. How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequential become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will. The day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come.

Hopefully you’re single… but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter. All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about. You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, “What if they were here today?” You’ll wonder, ”What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?”

That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest “What if?” you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that if you’re already with the one you’re with, that this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright.

It’s never nice to live with a “might have been,” but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different.

What do you do if it’s not yet too late?

Simple… find him, find her. Because the very existence of a “one that got away” means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee; ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be “the one that got away” as well for the person who is your “the one that got away.” You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow. And it would be a great feeling, if in the end, you’d be able to say to someone, ”Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away.”

♥♥♥

Kahit na parang “in the moment” ako right now at naooverwhelm ako sa mga pinapakita sakin, aware parin ako sa reality. Na malaki ang possibility na pwedeng magkaiwanan. At mapako ang mga promises. At magkasawaan. Nakakatakot minsan na parang gusto mo ng tumigil to save yourself from the heartaches. Ayaw mo nalang magrisk hindi dahil ayaw mong masayang ang ibibigay mo, kundi para hindi ka masanay ng nagbibigay ng ganun. Nagbibigay kahit alam mong sagad na sagad ka na. Pero ba’t kaya sige parin tayo? Kasi masarap magmahal. At kadalasan worth it ang mga niririsk natin.

Okaay napaganun na naman ako. ) Hooray for updates! Ngayon ko lang nafeel ba maglove talk ulit.

Heart br[e]ak(e)s.

Okaaay majority nito mga same experiences na nirerelate ko from what other people told me, from their stories. And I have some that I correlate myself. Sige nga, wild guess. Tintry ko magcomment on each one of them. Doesn’t necessarily mean experiences ko lahat yan.

‘I’m not allowed to fall in love,’ she said. ‘I’m not allowed to care this much.’ But when you’re staying up late, hoping to God he’s tossing and turning, thinking of you, it’s too late already.

Parang ako? I can’t restrain myself.

The next time I hug you, I think I might explode.

Sige ‘wag mo na kong pakawalan. )

I want to turn you on.

Even more para di mo na talaga ako papakawalan. )

I hate it that you are now in good terms with your ex-best friend/crush/special someone.

Sometimes. Though I know it’s obviously unintentional.

I lied. my phone batt wasn’t dead. I didn’t message you for the whole day, cause I want you to realize how important I am to you, and how much you need me.

Paranoid lang.

I hate the fact that even when I’m not on the road you still cant find time for me. But if you do it feels like you wished you were doing something else. I’m not insecure, just know what I want. But even though I have tried my best to make it work it still hasn’t worked. This is the first time I have given my all. I guess I never thought I would get to a point where my all wasn’t enough. I am terrified. When will just being me be enough.

What a martyr. I remember those times and I get all bitter. Okaay tama na.

Sometimes I think I listen to other people too much and not my heart enough. I still care about you and love you but I just can’t be with you. I did cry, and every time we talk on the phone, I tear up at least once. I want nothing but the best for you and I want you to be happy more than anything in the world.

EPIC. Except some parts to it.

Okaay I’m getting tired of those. Gusto ko naman ishare ngayon yung message ko for HER na pinagawa niya sakin. Natuwa ako sa overwhelming love and support from her superfriends nung nabasa ko yung post niya. And I’m sharing the same love and support as a big sister? HAHAHAHA.

pano ko ba sisimulan to. gusto ko lang sabihin na he’s a big fat a** jerk and he should go drown himself and go to hell. wtfudge. bakit hindi ko navibes yun. anywaay, tama na ang bitterness at iyakan, move on na tayo. isipin mo na lang na isa siyang malaking mantsa sa buhay mo. nandito naman kaming mga super friends mo eh, at least kami we’re always here, we love you and we will never cheat on you ano gusto mo gawin dun sa girl pabarang natin? haha. joke lang. sugurin na natin at pasabugin! what else can i say? ayoko namang magmukhang war freak. basta cherish all the good memories and learn from your and his mistakes. wag magmadali dahil ang mga lalaki, darating yang mga yan. isa lang siyang malaking stopover sa buhay mo. at ngayong under construction ka na, siguruhin mong mahal ang toll fee bago ulit may makadaan sayong bago. nagets mo ba? basta hintayin mo lang yung magfifinal destination sayo

Kay apparently I’m not very good at giving encouragement/love/support/those shizz when I associate it with venting out with anger. Nawawala ang poise ko. But ohwell. I don’t wanna fake it so there you go.